new perspective

well its been near a year since i wrote...time flies! but its weird how even in just the last 10 months or so i have gained a whole new perspective, of myself, of people, of the jackson experience, about what im supposed to do next etc..
two examples:
 1. i was certain right when i got back from jackson that i should drop out and start lookin for a job or a place where i could put my new realizations, passions to work! but nowwww, as i have had time to calm myself, i realize what i need is probably the opposite...i need more school!
2. i was readin through old blogs and realized how lonely i felt ...which may have been true at the time, but now as i think about Jackson that is not something that i think about at all! After leaving, the people that really cared about me, and the people i really care about have not only kept in touch, but we've gotten closer. i guess that saying is right...."distance makes the heart grow fonder"
I realize that i wasnt patient enough...4 months is nothin at all and so to expect to make deep connections just in that short time was STUPID, haha! (although, there was def. an exception to this)
But i guess this is only an affirmation that my story with Jackson isn't over...if it's still on my heart after this long i feel like it only makes sense to go back..which is why i just bought  a ticket to visit in january! we'll see whats next...but im excited to go back and see what god has for me there.

Coffee and Cigarettes

the other day i was walking around the UW campus, and when i glanced down i saw empty cigarette cartons and old starbucks cups. i instantly had flashbacks to jackson, where when i would glance down i would see swisher sweet and black n mild wrappers...and the occasional fast food wrapper. and it was just kinda funny, i mean obviously with different regions comes different cultures, traditions, norms etc...but how do they begin and why do they stick?
i guess lately iv just been feeling like i cant quite figure out my experience, but these little flashbacks are reminders that my learnings and lessons from jackson will continue to follow me and find me, in even the little, every day things...
iv been doing a HORRIBLE job at keepin this blog up to date but i cant quite wrap my brain around being back (for good!) so lately it feels like i dont have anything to say...bare with me