Im gearin up for finals week...its weird that its comin so fast! As i think about leaving i become schizophrenic!!! i want to jump for joy but then i want to cry! i have fallen in love with some of the characteristics, places, traditions, and people here! I think its more than just leaving those things and people here...its comin home and trying to get back into the swing of things! how do you do that when you've had a life altering, view changing, heart wrenching experience! How do you encorporate what you've learned and how you've grown into your every day life when no one around you knows or understands the process of how you got there?
and perhaps i dont have to encorporate anything...maybe god brought me here simply to just witness and see it! (i think sometimes i over analyze situations but often i feel that if i become involved in something or my heart is attached to something that i have to do something, i have to act....) and of course it will sometimes subconciously form how i think or process certain situations, but maybe i dont have to DO anything with this experience other than be a part of it!
If you think about it, pray that i can prepare my heart for the transition-for leaving people i love here but then for coming back to people i love back home! and pray that i dont think about it too much these next couple of weeks...its still about 3 weeks out, i dont need to get emotional yet! haha! pray that i continue to be involved with the campus, the house and the community and not allow me leaving soon to discourage or dishearten me!
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